All this time I’ve wondered why I’ve never been attracted to any ‘career’ options for my life and I just realised now. In my last high school yearbook, in the section for “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I answered with: to be beautiful in all that I do and am.
But what does that even mean? So I forgot about it. I struggled finding what I wanted to do in life. All I knew was that I’m passionate about self-empowerment, raising global awareness, learning things from nature, and all the little things I liked to do, like dancing, singing, decorating, etc. But they weren’t something I would do for a career. Because I want to do so many things but colleges can only offer me one thing. And it doesn’t attract me.
After reading a few pages into the book “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne, I’ve realised something. I’ve never wanted to be anything in particular. Only that I wanted to be beautiful. In all my actions and my being. And, without knowing, that’s the only thing I’ve been doing. If you ask me now, what does it mean to be beautiful in all that you do and all that you are? Well I would say: to have love and understanding of yourself, to appreciate, accept, and embrace your flaws and beauty that work together in harmony to create you. And then once you’ve raised your understanding of your life, of who you really are, the thoughts coalesce with compassion and thoughts for other people. I’ve been doing this for so long I didn’t even realise it was something I did. I’ve always thought it was just my strong opinions, however, ‘like attracts like’, and so my ‘like’ were beautiful thoughts and self-empowerment, so in turn, it attracted ‘like’ thoughts. Because it would seem, that my predominant thoughts, are not on wealth as I thought it was (considering my position), nor was it on happiness, or finding a soulmate (maybe a little bit on that). It was on enlightenment and beautiful things in life. And that attracted my partner; my love, my perception of life, my inner security, my self-confidence, my self-love, and my compassion. The universe, as they say, brought to me what I needed in my life. Which only prove that things really do happen for a reason. If your mind thinks most of something that you never want, it will keep coming to you, because you think so much of not wanting it. It’s not necessarily about “not having a care” for a problem because, face it, you still care as you often think about it. So it will come to you. It’s rather, shifting the thought, turning it around into something more worthy of your time. Of your life.
I realise I’ve been living the life I’ve always wanted; career-less or not, with the flaws and obstacles it came with, everything. And I appreciate all that’s been given to me. And that, is the secret.